You're not alone. Confidential help is available for free.
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline
1 800 273 TALK (8255)
Veterans Crisis Line - Connects Veterans in crisis and their families and friends with qualified, caring Department of Veterans Affairs responders through a confidential toll-free hotline, online chat, or text.
1 800 273 8255
The Trevor Project (for LGBT youth, friends and family members)
1 866 488 73865